Some selfies!

This is the ultrasound picture I kept from the clinic. I had the abortion yesterday. It was brutal and awful for like 30 minutes and then I started to feel better. I’ve been feeling great ever since. I’ve had light cramping and bleeding and I was a bit cranky today. I was strong until I got into the procedure room and they started doing it. Then I cried. They did an ultrasound before hand. I decided I wanted to see and keep a picture after it was over. In that moment, I just wanted closer. It doesn’t even look like a baby. Just two little balls. He was measuring 9 weeks 3 days (24 mm) but I was 8 weeks 6 days approximately. I could have been less farther along. The 8 weeks 6 days was just based on my LMP. I thought I would be really sad yesterday but I wasn’t. I haven’t really felt sad about it at all. My baby is in heaven now and I’m at peace with it all. They gave me a little pill for anxiety and then they put in an IV with pain meds and meds to make me drowsy and stuff. Then she examined my cervix with two fingers then she numbed my cervix with pinched a bit. Having a needle in your vagina is not fun. Then the worst part came. She had to insert a retractor to open up my cervix but she had to try two or three times because apparently I have a high uterus/cervix. That part hurt the most. Then it was just a vacuum sound and it was over. I felt brutal and awful after. I was going to look at it but I decided against it. For like 15 minutes afterwards my uterus hurt so bad because it was contracting and shrinking back to its normal size. My body was in shock and I was crying and hyperventilating. I really wanted James to be there then. I called Lexie and talked a bit. Basically sobbed though. I was texting James too. I started to feel better right after though. I was cramping a bit and bleeding but nothing worse than a period. The rest of the day I felt great. Barely any cramps. Me and my mom went for lunch and went shopping. I’m on antibiotics and I had to take 8 pills at once today because I tested positive for bacterial vaginosis. My nipples are sore. I went shopping again today and have barely been bleeding and little to no cramps.

This is the ultrasound picture I kept from the clinic. I had the abortion yesterday. It was brutal and awful for like 30 minutes and then I started to feel better. I’ve been feeling great ever since. I’ve had light cramping and bleeding and I was a bit cranky today. I was strong until I got into the procedure room and they started doing it. Then I cried. They did an ultrasound before hand. I decided I wanted to see and keep a picture after it was over. In that moment, I just wanted closer. It doesn’t even look like a baby. Just two little balls. He was measuring 9 weeks 3 days (24 mm) but I was 8 weeks 6 days approximately. I could have been less farther along. The 8 weeks 6 days was just based on my LMP. I thought I would be really sad yesterday but I wasn’t. I haven’t really felt sad about it at all. My baby is in heaven now and I’m at peace with it all. They gave me a little pill for anxiety and then they put in an IV with pain meds and meds to make me drowsy and stuff. Then she examined my cervix with two fingers then she numbed my cervix with pinched a bit. Having a needle in your vagina is not fun. Then the worst part came. She had to insert a retractor to open up my cervix but she had to try two or three times because apparently I have a high uterus/cervix. That part hurt the most. Then it was just a vacuum sound and it was over. I felt brutal and awful after. I was going to look at it but I decided against it. For like 15 minutes afterwards my uterus hurt so bad because it was contracting and shrinking back to its normal size. My body was in shock and I was crying and hyperventilating. I really wanted James to be there then. I called Lexie and talked a bit. Basically sobbed though. I was texting James too. I started to feel better right after though. I was cramping a bit and bleeding but nothing worse than a period. The rest of the day I felt great. Barely any cramps. Me and my mom went for lunch and went shopping. I’m on antibiotics and I had to take 8 pills at once today because I tested positive for bacterial vaginosis. My nipples are sore. I went shopping again today and have barely been bleeding and little to no cramps.

So this happened today. I had completely missed my period so I decided to take a pregnancy test on my lunch break at work. It was positive. I wasn’t even expecting it to be positive but here we are. I was shocked and I had to go back to work for four hours pretending this was ok. I texted mom and told her. She was mad but she’s gunna tell dad. I’m gunna tell James this Thursday or Friday whenever I see him. I want to do it in person. Amanda knows, Kayla knows, Lexie knows but she was being a bitch about it so whatever. My only symptoms were like light cramping for like a week or so, sore nipples and hormonal surges. I have to go to the doctor some point soon then I’ll tell work.

So this happened today. I had completely missed my period so I decided to take a pregnancy test on my lunch break at work. It was positive. I wasn’t even expecting it to be positive but here we are. I was shocked and I had to go back to work for four hours pretending this was ok. I texted mom and told her. She was mad but she’s gunna tell dad. I’m gunna tell James this Thursday or Friday whenever I see him. I want to do it in person. Amanda knows, Kayla knows, Lexie knows but she was being a bitch about it so whatever. My only symptoms were like light cramping for like a week or so, sore nipples and hormonal surges. I have to go to the doctor some point soon then I’ll tell work.

So this happened today. I had completely missed my period so I decided to take a pregnancy test on my lunch break at work. It was positive. I wasn’t even expecting it to be positive but here we are. I was shocked and I had to go back to work for four hours pretending this was ok. I texted mom and told her. She was mad but she’s gunna tell dad. I’m gunna tell James this Thursday or Friday whenever I see him. I want to do it in person. Amanda knows, Kayla knows, Lexie knows but she was being a bitch about it so whatever. My only symptoms were like light cramping for like a week or so, sore nipples and hormonal surges. I have to go to the doctor some point soon then I’ll tell work.

So this happened today. I had completely missed my period so I decided to take a pregnancy test on my lunch break at work. It was positive. I wasn’t even expecting it to be positive but here we are. I was shocked and I had to go back to work for four hours pretending this was ok. I texted mom and told her. She was mad but she’s gunna tell dad. I’m gunna tell James this Thursday or Friday whenever I see him. I want to do it in person. Amanda knows, Kayla knows, Lexie knows but she was being a bitch about it so whatever. My only symptoms were like light cramping for like a week or so, sore nipples and hormonal surges. I have to go to the doctor some point soon then I’ll tell work.

My new hair and me and mom at original joes!

My dog!

My dog!

Finally got a good selfie of James ;) he looks good there. Delicious med bread from Moxies and a selfie from work today. A guy told me I have beautiful teeth today lol

Me in James’ hat :)

Me in James’ hat :)